oct. 30

well today was long and boring except the fact power went out at work. for holloween i get to see juliawe are eatibg candy and watching movies in our costumes so that will be fun.

Bleh

Today was long and boring it was slow at work. occasinal customer here and there. i messed up beyond compare with julia the other day and im doing all i can to cheer her up and make it up to her but i dont know what to do sunday is seven months and i had the day planned to be special but how can that happen when she looks at me and feels sad and betrayed. i dug a trap hole that i fell into myself and i cant seem to get out. i just wish i could go back and change what i did. alot of people go through tough times in there relationship. so everyone knows the question of " how do i save the relatiomship with the one i love????" but i dont think anybody has ia good answer. but all i can say right now until i figure out what to do is say, Julia if your reading this im sorry i never ment to hurt you i was an idiot and a dumba**. i love you with all my heart and if you want anything just tell me. ill do anything for you.


" you ask me which is more important you or my life. I say my life you leave upset and angry. Not knowing that you are my life."

Till next time
Steven P.